Hi
This is like what, the year.... 2013?
How long ago was the last post?
2008? When I was in sec 2?? SERIOUSLY???
Sigh... Sorry dear blog, for neglecting you for the past few years.
When I come back today, everything was intact, everything was left the same way as I had left them before.
Anw, the reason that I decided to revive this ancient blog of mine, is cos I found someone else's blog.
Didn't know she had a blog, it is dead now, but her last post was still in 2012.
Seeing her last post was heart wrenching.
So, it wasn't me afterall.
It was never me.
Maybe I had known it since long ago, but it still hurts.
The reality hurts.......
How
See lah, why have you had to make me go through this again?
I kind of gave up on you like end of last year by putting my attention on another
But you appeared again
Months of silence suddenly broke and we talked for hours like nothing had happened before.
...and then, I can't restrain myself from falling in love with you again.
I just can't
can't
The smiles you gave me before
The conversations we had before
The times we had before
Were all lies
Fairytale
Fallacies
whatever you call it.
Stop being upset about that guy anymore
Just take a look around you
And you will find me.
I always be waiting for you.

I may act that my mind is still on her. But do you have any idea it's reverse psychology? You are the apple of my eye. 
*****, I love you
"After all these times?"
"Always"